willowiris

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!! I am almost to graduation. Just a few more days and I will be done with the whole ceremony. Wish I will be done with the whole process but I have one more thing to do; a writing/ reading workshop practicum for students in the area struggling with reading and writing. I have to pay $1600 for this class, they don't want you working but like people can't work nowadays, and it takes up the best hours of the working day 8-12. Having a hard time finding a job around those times. Just applied to Clubz.com and put in times that I am available for tutoring. That should be good. I will at least bring in some money for the summer.
I hope to hear from one of the schools I applied for and get an interview. I really want a teaching job and I hope it works out for me :) CAN"T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!

Current Location: at the computer :)
Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: NONE

My mother, Elizabeth, and father, James, were both in the military. They were stationed in Hawaii for five years; during that time they got married and had my older brother. The moved back to North Carolina and my mother found out she was having my twin brother and I. She also found out that she had breast cancer. She decided not to do anything about it until we were born. Unfortunately she only lived two years after we were born. Her family would come down and bring us to Maine when she got really sick. She did chemo for awhile and finally she couldn't take it anymore and stopped treatments. She wanted to die in Maine, but sadly did not make it back in time. She is buried in the East Sangerville cemetery. She is all alone in her plot. My father will not be buried with her, I believe he won't. I think that I want to, that way she is not alone.

Current Location: still in the basement!
Current Mood: contemplative

I have a hard time the last several years. I left my family behind me and have moved on. They keep coming after me and I feel that I will never get away from them. Some members surprise me and show me that they want me in their life. I am confused at times. I want to know how they are all doing but I don't want them in my life because of how controlling they will be. I have come so far in the last few years as far as taking control of my life and doing what I want. I make decisions for me and that feels so great! I don't think that I could ever go back to what my life was like. So, I have to leave them all behind and move on. It has hurt so bad! Not so much now, but it was really bad there for awhile. I was in therapy and on Prozac. Now I am off the medicine and out of therapy.
THe story is long. I don't feel like posting the whole thing now, but I will. I am going to write a book about it someday. I know so many people write books about their lives,but when your therapists tell you that your family takes the cake on any other they have heard about, you know it is a story that isn't like everyone else's out there. I will share more another time.

Current Location: in the basement still!
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: COAST 93.1